"Not yet and yet already." (Hermann Broch)
"...the root of history is the working, creating human being who reshapes and overhauls the given facts. Once he has grasped himself and established what is his, without expropriation and alienation,
in real democracy, there arises in the world something which shines into the childhood of all and in which no one has yet been: homeland." (Ernst Bloch)
"It's my party, and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to
Cry if I want to.
You would cry too, if it happened to you." (Lesley Gore)
I sincerely hope many of the events and persons in this website are fictitious. Any similarity to actual persons and events would in those cases not favorably recommend the world.[1]
Also: Should you find anything here "offensive", do not make yourself so small as to take offense: Just tell yourself I am not worth your precious time and go some place more to your liking
I try to produce a website that is both intellectually substantive and esthetically elegant, using only primitive web applications to create technically simple static web pages (I would have preferred an Internet all directly built with SGML). "God is in the details." (Mies van der Rohe)[2]
Everywhere I go, here I am.[3] Please excuse and appreciate that what I have written is often not what I would autochthously have meant to write, because my mental and emotional reflexes were relentlessly trampled upon by my benighted childrearenders (aka: parents and teaches; like in an automobile crash...) who were determined to make me believe and feel what they had been socially conditioned to believe they were supposed to make me believe and feel, instead of nurturing my own innate faculty of judgment – as if I was their goose for foie gras.
Beware o man thy grievous fall....
So this website is "warts and all".[8] Better to try to risk being honest than to look better than my social surround of origin which shaped my biological and pedagogical progenitors shaped them to shape me to be, and let it get away with it scot-free. I think I would not have any warts had it not infected me through them with its social adjusgment virus. Wilfred Bion wrote:
All social customs are shared hallucinoses aka social psychoses.*
Not good, but less bad, to be spiritually cripped than to have that psychotic disorder from which normatively socially conditioned people unwittingy suffer: "being normal". I do my best, and critically review my behavioral patterns and beliefs frequently even if often too late now for it to matter. I keep trying, and failing, and falling....
Not only is no thought ever final for anyone (read here), but "my thoughts" are often not my own (autochthonously arising...) thoughts, which latter I may belatedly recover after I have defensively said something I didn't exactly mean, to try to protect my soul from their intrusions → when it's too late. I suffer from chronic l'esprit d'escalier.
I hope you will find value in what I have done.[4] (There's even some amusements.) The site is large, currently: 548 pages, 1,448 different images and more than 13,931 hyperlinks.[7] It is always a dialectical work in progress: Parts may be incomplete, inconsistent, redundant and/or of differing quality. Be forewarned I am not politically correct / woke; I try to be awake. I am an equal opportunity offender. Please start here
"When we speak we are afraid our words will not be heard or welcomed. But when we are silent, we are still afraid. So it is better to speak, for we were not meant to survive." (Audre Lorde, via Marco Romano) Let me know your considered thoughts: positive, negative or other, at: bradmcc@bmccedd.org. Thank you, Rrose Sélavy.[5]
- ↑ I (BMcC[18-11-46-503]) have no knowledge or even hearsay of anything not in the public domain. Therefore no credible classified information can be extracted from me under torture. Because of my ignorance, I reserve the right to say things which offend people as opposed to doing them material harm, and anyone who learns of anythng I say or write is consequently logically at liberty to dismiss it as mere personal opinion just like any other lay person running their mouth off, such as, perhaps, some putative petty felon college dropout who might try to pass a forged banknote somewhere. Antipodally, medically unnecessary circumcision is felonious assault not speech; I would defend a persons's right to advocate such a practice (or anything else) so long as they did not endeavor to get anyone to do the deed except themself to themself. Caveat lector!
- ↑ The images I show are often not as I (BMcC[18-11-46-503]) would like them. Items: I have difficulty aligning stuff to pixel perfect precision and color hues are not always "spot on". It's all what I can do with the freeware tools I have, so kindly try to imagine everything here as more "professionally" done than it is. Your understaning is appreciated.
- ↑ Peregrinatio in stabilitate. Art Appel, an IBM Research employee, had posted on his office door: "Three things are not possible: The desire of the rich to have more, the desire of the sick for something different, and the desire of the traveler to be any place but here."
- ↑ To err is human, and this website has gotten so complex that⁁seems to me (BMcC[18-11-46-503]) highly unlikely I haven't messed up some stuff in it, especially by 𝄆my very efforts to keep everything straight𝄇. Believe it or not, I (BMcC[18-11-46-503]) do believe I have verified that every page here can be accessed starting at the index (i.e.: present...) page without cheating by accessing it from an audit page.. You may find some factually incorrect sentences here, and . Please let me know the corrections (bradmcc@bmccedd.org). I do sincerely hope, however, that yourself, like Marshall McLuhan and Masud Khan, value spirit/soul-expanding playful errors more than merely denotatively factually correct Ascii character strings, except, of course, in misfortunate situations of peril. Reality is a thing to be overcome.
- ↑ The word by way of preface which seeks to break through the screen stretched between the author and the reader by the book itself does not give itself out as a word of honor. But it belongs to the very essence of language, which consists in continually undoing its phrase by the foreword or the exegesis, in unsaying the said, in attempting to restate without ceremonies what has already been ill understood in the inevitable ceremonial in which the said delights. (Emanuel Levinas, "Totality and Infinity", 1961/1969, p. 30)
- ↑ Note on date format: Prof. McClintock and I have had some interactions about how to format dates. All my life I have been repulsed by American date and time formats. Prof. McClintock thought up one thing and I have built on his idea for dates. As for the "v" numbers, I "have a thing" about audit trails and keeping track of things. If ever anybody complains about one of my webpages here itself, as opposed to its semantic content, I want to know what version of the page they are referring to, so as not to try the wrong defendant.
- ↑ I (BMcC[18-11-46-503]) maintain and continue to elaborate (Crescit eundo) this website using several Julia scripts which automate most of this work: here. The link count is conservative; by a liberal accounting it would be larger. Also, this website is not "mobile friendly"; I (BMcC[18-11-46-503]) am not mobile friendly: "Shut down your computer. Restart a friendship. The conversation is waiting. Go there." (Grand Marnier (liqueur, aka: cordial))
- ↑ Should a period that is not part of the quoted text be inside or outside the ending quote mark? I find neither alternative satisfactory but I find most displeasing of all to be told what to do. Everything should be up for grabs, shouldn't it? See: here
- ↑ I would urge each person to ask him, her or other self: "Am I a biased partisan, or do I answer to the higher power of a universal skill which can benefit all humanity no matter how fractious they are? Am I on one side or the other side or a dispute, or do I endeavor to rise above the fray in the service of a skill that can potentially benefit any person indiscriminately, irrespective of their beliefs du jour?" Perhaps awkwardly worded: Are you a flag-waver or a flagman?
- ↑ Even this can be improved upon. It is decisively better to "be" a musician — a master of a universal skill — than to be a partisan, a Croat or a muslim. But it is even better to "verb" not "be" a noun: "I am competent to play music for the benefit of all humanity, and to teach this skill to others. Let me contribute!". Everyone should "be" a "man without qualities", i.e.: deploy over many qualities but "identify" as none. Cogito ergo sum.
- ↑ 1997, or more likely, December 1996 is when I (BMcC[18-11-46-503]) started my original Cloud9 website, which was murdered ca. September 2020, after Cloud9 decided that web hosting was not profitable. The present site ports everything that was there (here) and also what I did on APtS (A Place to Study), starting 18 May 2020. The present Dreamhost website was establiehed 24 September 2021 (now more than 2.44 years ago).
